Son Hoyoung goes for an evil smirk. An angelic review with devil besides me part 1

I really have a headache. I had a tough time working on this review. Pardon me, i'm not boasting about hardworking but... it's really tough.

There's this book. I decide to write the review later since I've been busy for my study. I halt my eagerness in writing 2 review about books that I bought and read at same period. I wrote it at the same time (literally wrote not type) and starts to type it now. one review is out. it's Orizuka's book titled Infinitely yours and here's the 2nd book : Once Upon a love by Adhitia Yudis.

I have a hard time. why though? I bought those 2 books about 1-2 months ago, I finished 3 days after I bought those books and sadly, I can't remember all the scene in Once Upon A Love while Infinitely yours is clearly stayed on my mind.

Evil Mode: On

I'll Be GOD's Son HoYoung. A Smiling angel Idol from 1990's K-pop Generation who can smile while ask for break up. No i'm not going to break up with someone. It's just means I can be cruel while i'm.... smiling.

I really didn't know what kind of ghost possessed me when I decide to bought this book together with Infinitely yours. For Infinitely Yours, I've been curious since a long time but never insist to bought it until that day. But Once Upon A Love...? It's just a new book in new release corner. I didn't even curious about that novel. It's not my preference if we look at cover, storyline, author unless the publisher. If i don't get an Alzheimer today, The reason I clearly remember maybe just I found the price will make a good combination with Infinitely your. It makes the cost even. And also match with my wallet conditions :p

However going home with two books, I'm not being honest if I write that I'm not picked ounce upon A love as my first choice to read between those 2 books.

I Did Pick it. Once Upon A love first and Ta-Da, I finished it quickly. Approximately at dawn after I wake up accidentally. I'm immersed to Once Upon A Love (i'm getting tired typing the title, later will use OUAL) and using 3-4 hours nett for finishing this book.

Well, Finished it quick, stated that I enjoy reading this book, Nevertheless forgetting the story means I really disappointed.

Disappointed... maybe yes. as a comparison I can say that I bought those 2 books together, read it at 3-4 days straight, try to write the review together at same night and I Opened Infinitely yours just to find the exact quotes while for OUAL, I need it for... writing synopsis. It's quite a time and I need a hour for calling back those memories about reading the novel.

The Synopsis? Ah, I just need to remember that OUAL tell us about triangle love, 3 characters, 2 girls one boy. 1 girl and 1 boy make a couple, I got in jealousy but can do nothing. After sometimes, the couple broke up, the girl hook into another boy, the boy still caught in the past while the other girl still dreaming to get this boy. getting older, they want to keep in contact. But the problem is, the boy want to make a contact only if his past girl comes in, while the other girl don't even want to think about it. They broke up for some stupid reason and the boy just want to try to come back into their relationship.

As A writer,there's a possibility about being greedy in making surprising twist for appealing the readers. However, making twist also implied that the author taking a risky choice of his/her works.

It reminds me something. I usually having a discussion with my friends after watching some dramas. we just feel that our ego wants to make the story like this and that want the part of story change into this and that. and after some thoughts, we'll feel that if our ego is being realized, then the dramas will end only at two episodes. max 6 if the director dragged it for a looooong exaggerated story. we create a fail twist for the drama, And I'm lucky the writer don't think like us.

Then, what's the relation with this review?

Well, if you guess OUAL had a fail twist, then I congratulate you for being a mind reader *slapped in the face*

why though?

I can tell you that this story is about triangle love which normally ends with 2 being couple one die or have another happy live out there or having another boy. that's what we expect to get from this type of story.

Sashileun, i can being greedy by ends it with no one get a relationship. this will do... for short story not novels, unless you can put morals that really really logic and rational for that decision.

I mean it. Who want's to read hundred more pages of typical romance that tell us about fighting to get a heart but ends with nothing. 6-8 pages will do, But a hundreds? At least you want your character got something. OUAL is really cruel, The 3 leads got something called nothing and I frustrated. Thank you.

I've read miss (or mrs maybe :p) Adhitia Yudis previous works called Mendamba and put my review in here. I didn't tell about how I disappointed about its climax there since I got to borrow it from the publisher :p Concluding for two books that I read from Miss (or Mrs) Adit's works seems like she got a problem in controlling viewers's peak of emotions into her story. Sorry for being rude, but that's what I feel.

Another problem exists, I guess you have to kill me for your timeline that separated only by those similar looking fonts which differ only by some little narrowness. I'm confused for your timeline and I just realized it that the fonts are different when you travelling back into time after.... I wrote this review. yes, thanks to those shitty fonts.

I Really don't prefer a reading materials when I encountered a-back-to-previous-page-for-getting-to-know-what-this-page-is-all-about. And I do it when I read Once Upon A love.

Sorry, i'm just dissapointed. I have a right for my preference, haven't I?

Infinitely yours --- Book Review

Diam itu emas. Sayang, emas tidak bisa membatalkan keputusannya untuk say goodbye. Well, that's not the truth. To be exact emas tidak bisa membatalkan keputusan gue untuk say bye for good... to her.

"Karena Semuanya cuma Momen"

You said that Ray, you have to be sure that's only a moment. You stated that only a moment which are gue terbawa sama suasana di tempat yang bahkan gue gak familiar dengan bahasanya plus make it worse, this heartbroken situation. Situasinya membuat gue dan dia, a girl who doesn't look like 25 years old, Who I only bumped accidentally and broke her PSP,coincidentally become my partner in this sucks tour, who actually comeback to Seoul because of her ideal-type-man but she has to accompany me looking for this heartbroken crap cause. it's funny. She's not even my acquintance, only meet coincidentally however , I need to think hard to decide to say goodbye to her for good and I felt hard for it. Ray! wake up! only a moment Ray, remember that!

"Jatuh Cinta apa secepat itu Al. Gue enggak yakin."

mmm.. I'm not sure, it's too precious to called it only a moment since my heart beating more. I definitely have to say goodbye... for her good or.. mine. ----------------Rayan

oOo

Akhirnya gue mengerti mengapa wanita yang mau menikah harus dipingit. Mianhae, Yun jae Oppa.

It's been a while I first called him ahjoessi...

It's also been a while he told me that he didn't want someone who only differ by 3 years old called him ahjoessi..

It's been a while... but the journey will ends.. soon..

He's an oppa, I even don't know him unless he broke my psp which I treasured so much since I've been mastering the game for a long period. oh, i forget. add something : he's arrogant, ill tempered, naive, stiff, and... heartbroken.

He's so Naive. I mean it. Who actually wants to chase someone who broke up with us if the distance is not short, the location is even he didn't familiar with, he didn't know the language, and only come with a little piece of paper with an address of an apartment in Itaewon. He's so.. naive.

Pabo. Jeongmallo.

Wait! since when I concern much about him?

Michigesso. Nottemune.

make it worst, now, I even hate to see his back going far away from me. Weguressoyo Jingga? Jeongmal Michigesso!

Ahnimida, naega michigesso anio. Hoksi... Sarangeun? ------------- Jingga

oOo

That's my version of the synopsis for Orizuka's Infinitely Yours (2011, Gagas Media).

To be honest, knowing how Gagas Media selecting their will-be-published novel, I have more curiosity towards Gagas Media's novel who took place outside Indonesia. For me, getting feel for some place in Indonesia itself is not easy. In addition, when someone write for readers who never been to that place outside Indonesia, it surely make the author have to work harder.

That's why I gambled a lot in deciding to buy this Infinitely Yours by Orizuka. I believe in Gagas Media and look forward only in how the authors bring the readers sightseeing into her settings by her written sentences.

to be honest, maybe this is a the first time I found that Gagas Media's synopsis not as interesting as before. and the titled strongly give a statement that this is about traditional romance which tell a triangle love in some life.

Well, i've said I bet a lot in buying this. only curious in its settings while having a bad premonition about this and that. and the result says : I guess, i'm not losing my bet a lot. I did a little disappointed for buying this book however I also get some interesting lessons by reading this book.

Start with the plot, Infinitely yours surely not giving a-something-special-theme-for-its-storyline. it's not hard to find books that tell us about a girl who pursue her ideal type man but in her way, he fall in love with some-bad-man-criteria that she met coincidentally. A traditional romance which has Fate as a cupid. I will bet all my life to find many books with the storyline like this. Nevertheless, Orizuka did a little better than good job in locating and guiding the feel into its place in her sequence of works. When you read this so-typical-storyline, I, honestly, immersed in page by page of this book. More points added for the fact that this teen targeted novel surprisingly soo teenager in a mature way.

I bet a lot for Orizuka's settings and i'm a little bit below satisfied. she really did a good job in researching the place in Seoul etc, but since there's so many place to describe, it feels like some place described well while others not. I mean when some authors wrote only focused in one location the option will be like it or hate it, but when we add many locations it will ad another option : x%like + y% hate. Make it worst, how Orizuka set the place really tell us that she's never been there. it's a pity.

Nevertheless , I always enjoying a novels with feelings or had proper sequence with proper feel rather than somplicated-sophisticated storyline. Of course it'll be better if it got both, but if I had to choose one I pick feel for the number 1 priority. Uniqueness sure had more selling points, however feeling is the one who rule you when you read some books. that's what I thought, and I guess Infinitely yours had a proper feeling and sequence despite the typical storyline. And I enjoyed it. Gomapseumnida Orizuka ssi.

^^

Ppyong!

ps: one more review to add.. i've finished wrote it last night and still lazy to type it... later post.. ppyong!

I hope it's not too late for apologize

Happy new yeaaaaaar! *digampar* *sooo late*

it's been a busy year for 2011 which I starts with another full and hectic semester and ends it with hopefully will be my last semester for my Bachelor degree. (currently waiting for my grades)

I'm coming back to this blog and sadly found that in 2011 I only do 3 posts and lastly did on june. So pity. We'll it's been my promise since 1st of january that I'll try to fill up this blog more in 2012 and hope that it'll be true.

So, again, happy new year! and merry Xmas Later for people in Rusia! :) hope it's not too late to apologize for less prioritying this blog. adios! annyeong!

Iseng

Anyeong haseyo, manngapsseumnida


*masih melanjutkan belajar bahasa korea* *bener ga tuh*

So, something’s new. Sekarang masa semester enam kuliah gue udah berakhir dengan cukup memuaskan buat gue. *sorak sorai bergembira*

So, what’s new? Sekarang setelah semester enam selesai, liburan 3 bulan tanpa SP dan gue pake buat KP a.k.a kerja praktik. Shortly, no holiday. Nah gue KP sebenernya pengen macem-macem, berhubung ada aturan KP dan daripadadaripada nilai gue entar bego lagi, mkanya gue ngikutin aturan bahwa KPnya harus IT. Dan yang menurut gw bisa gue tanganin, developing web.

bisa kok gue tanganin, kalo ternyata sesuatu yg simple malah jadi malapetaka.

Anyway, happy holiday for those who get any free day. And happy (?) waiting for those who want to pick university.

Salam gabut selalu

Comeback! Writing still be my something precious

Gue mau mulai ini dengan dua buah pertanyaan, yang entah akan berkembang menjadi pertanyaan yang takkan habis atau tidak. Pertanyaan pertama , apa sih definisi perbedaan? Kedua, apa yang salah dengan berbeda? Mungkin setiap kepala yang gue temuin bisa memberikan pendapat yang bisa jadi sama titik tekannya. Perbedaan mengetengahkan sesuatu yang tidak sama. Bisa dilihat dari sisi apapun itu. Entah gue suka dia enggak, gue seneng dia sedih, gue ngefans dia benci , gue doyan dia gak suka, gue jalan dia diem , gue serius dia bercanda, gue hitam dia putih dan lain sebagainya. Apakah salah menjadi beda? Setiap orang mungkin akan jawab tidak, tetapi ketika dihadapkan pada sebuah permasalahan kata-kata itu sering kali dijilat balik oleh sang pemilik kata-kata. Gue mungkin dengan mudah bertanya, menurut lo menjadi beda itu salah gak? Simply answered : enggak lah, kan Bhinneka tunggal ika , walaupun berbeda-beda tetapi tetap satu. Siapkah dengan konsekuensi pertanyaan dan jawaban itu?

Bagaimana kalau anda dihadapkan pada suatu kondisi dimana ternyata anak anda berbeda? Beda dalam banyak hal. Berbeda keinginan dan keahlian dari orangtuanya seperti misalnya anak dokter yang memilih untuk menjadi politikus? Siapkah anda? Atau mungkin berbeda fisik dari anak-anak dalam artian (maaf) cacat secara fisik ? Atau mungkin kemungkinan lain dimana anak anda memiliki dunia yang berbeda? Penyuka sesama jenis mungkin, atau mungkin tidak mau bersosialisasi dengan saudaranya, tidak suka menabung, tidak suka belajar, atau berbeda dengan kriteria seseorang yang menjadi idaman anda? Siapkah?

Ketika gue mempertanyakan masalah perbedaan beberapa orang temen gue punya beberapa pendapat yang cukup menarik. Pertama temen gue bilang, kenapa perbedaan salah kalau memang semua di dunia gak ada yang sama? Ada setujunya ada enggaknya. Sorry to say buat gue hukum idempoten tuh berlaku . Sesuatu akan selalu sama dengan dirinya sendiri. Kalaupun itu berarti sesuatu yang literally sama, setiap sesuatu ada bedanya ada samanya, tergantung dimana kita menarik sudut pandangnya. Sebuah meja satu dan meja yang lain bisa dinggap sama jika ditilik dari benda apa itu. Surely jawabannya meja untuk semua meja jenis apapun, tapi kalau ditanya seperti apa itu, ya mungkin meja satu dan yang lain mungkin berbeda. Well, still have a question , gimana kalau ternyata anak lo entar 'berbeda' apakah lo masih mau tidak menyalahkan perbedaan dengan menerima dia?

Kedua, temen gue memulai dengan perbedaan itu memang menyakitkan, dan lebih sering menyakitkan. Tapi perbedaan itu gak salah. Disini gue cukup bertanya, kenapa menurut lo kalau ditabok itu salah? Karena ditabok itu menyakitkan bukan? Lantas alasan seperti apa yang bisa mengcounter bahwa perbedaan itu salah dengan sebuah reasoning seperti itu? Maaf, bukan bermaksud memojokkan pemikiran beberapa orang sahabat tetapi gue belum bisa mendapatkan sebuah kepuasan atas jawaban pertanyaan gue.

Salah satu penggalan lirik dari lagu yang dinyanyikan seorang Ari Lasso tercurah : Segala perbedaan itu, membuatmu jauh dariku. Sebegitu jahatnyakah si perbedaan itu? Menghancurkan banyaknya persatuan?

Enggak, perbedaan gak cuma jahat. Perbedaan juga sangat baik. Kita berteman karena memiliki suatu faktor yang berbeda. Jika memang suatu persahabatan didasarkan pada suatu persamaan mutlak, setiap manusia tentunya tidak akan betah punya teman. Seseorang akan merasa melihat dirinya sendiri terperangkap dalam tubuh orang lain. Setidaknya, fisik tidak akan sama, atau entah mungkin di jaman yang sudah gila ini banyak manusia yang hanya mau berteman dengan dirinya sendiri. Itupun menurut gue akan ada saatnya seseorang itu menciptakan satu sosok lain dirinya yang berbeda. Lebih jauh lagi, perbedaan juga membawa ke banyak jalan menuju suatu hubungan yang lebih dalam. Perbedaan mendatangkan sebuah cinta, mendatangkan suatu hubungan yang menghasilkan status 'in a relationship' bagi dua orang cucu Adam. Bahkan yang lebih dahsyat lagi perbedaan bisa melahirkan suatu yang namanya pernikahan. Seseorang pasti akan memiliki hubungan relationship dengan orang yang minimal bukan dirinya sendiri. Berbeda. Atau mungkin sekarang masih trend bikin status in relationship with dengan orang yang notabene kita sendiri? Pernikahan dengan seseorang yang sama? I beg for a big no.

Dunia penuh perbedaan. That's why gue mengangguk ketika temen gue bilang itu. Bahkan dalam cinta pun ada perbedaan. Gue inget temen gue yang amat sangat cerdas menurut gue ketika gue bertanya pertanyaan yang sama seperti pertanyaan sebelumnya, dengan pandangan hidupnya dia bilang

“ Gue setuju kok sama perbedaan. Mereka gak salah. “
“ Terus lo siap sama konsekuensi jawaban lo? Gimana kalau suatu saat anak dan suami lo 'berbeda'?” pertanyaan gue berlanjut.
“ Kalau gue udah berkomitmen untuk cinta, gue pasti siap untuk itu.”

Well , that's unquestionable answer for me.

“ Dan menurut gue, itu semua adalah masalah pandangan hidup aja, try to accepting atau menderita karenanya.”

Dan gue semakin berhenti untuk bertanya pada diri gue sendiri. Ternyata ada orang yang dengan pandangan hidupnya memilih untuk entah sesuatu yang namanya pasrah pada keadaan seburuk apapun itu dan mencoba mengambilnya sebagai salah satu yang memberi warna menyenangkan pada hidup ini. Sementara orang lain justru sibuk dengan mencela dan melakukan self denial terhadap apa yang buruk yang ada didepan mereka. Gue gak bilang gue pihak yang mana, gue sendiri pun sebenarnya masih dalam tahap pengembangan diri dimana menurut gue ada kalanya gue memiliki suatu konsistensi pandangan hidup yang berubah-ubah.

Back to the point, bicara kehidupan , perasaan , hubungan , bahkan cinta tetap akan melahirkan suatu perbedaan. Gue bukan pakar cinta, dan apalagi seorang yang memiliki suatu pengalaman cinta yang amat sangat banyak. Tetapi gue tahu apa rasanya jatuh cinta, gue tahu gimana rasanya menghadapi cinta yang datang entah dalam suatu kondisi yang memuaskan atau bahkan kegagalan. Gue tau gimana rasanya lo ditelpon sama temen lo sendiri hanya karena temen lo gak setuju lo pacaran dengan dia. Atau mungkin gimana rasanya lo punya hati yang tersimpan dalam beberapa rusuk orang lain, bahkan ketika sebuah cinta lahir dari suatu perbedaan usia , status, pendidikan , lokasi dan masih banyak lagi kasta perbedaannya. Gue cukup tau gimana rasanya itu semua. Dan sekali lagi, diantaranya pasti terselip sebuah rasa kesedihan, sebuah duka ataupun berita yang mungkin tidak mengenakkan hati. Penyebabnya? Tidak lain dan tidak bukan perbedaan itu sendiri.

Gue akan coba mengerucut ke permasalahan yang mungkin menurut gue jauh lebih simpel danatau rumit menurut gue. Simply said Love, atau dalam bahasa Indonesia disebutnya cinta.

Terlalu banyak wajah cinta yang hadir dalam sebuah perbedaan. Rasanya dua ratus lembar pun mungkin tak habis untuk menceritakannya. Wajah cinta yang terbentuk diantara dua insan manusia itu sendiri pun melahirkan suatu perbedaan satu sama lain. Baik wajah cinta yang mungkin lumrah dimata masyarakat sampai wajah cinta yang 'berbeda' dan mungkin beberapa bagian masyarakat saja yang bisa menerimanya. Lagi-lagi, wajah cinta hidup dalam sebuah perbedaan.

Kamu pernah melihat wajah cinta? Ada berapa banyak wajah cinta berbeda yang sudah kamu ungkap tabirnya? Bagaimana pendapat kamu? Wajah seperti apa yang kamu pilih? Apakah kamu memilih wajah cinta yang biasa-biasa saja untuk mengisi pelangi hidupmu? Apa justru kamu nekat memilih wajah cinta yang berbeda demi meramaikan bahtera hidupmu? Apakah sebuah perbedaan memberikan suatu keindahan warna bagimu? Mungkin saja iya , tapi sejalan dengan itu selalu ada sebuah probabilitas yang berbicara untuk kata tidak bahagia. Bisakah cinta melebur dengan perbedaan guna memberikan warna baru pada sebuah kehidupan yang kamu jalani? Apakah Perbedaan itu menjadi sesuatu yang lumrah dalam hidupmu?

Kembali ke poin awal, jadi siapa atau mungkin apa sih perbedaan itu? Dua sisi mata koin yang saling menyayat pemiliknya sampai akhirnya pasrah dalam gulungan perban atau justru membuangnya jauh-jauh? Tapi hidup kita tidak berjalan tanpa adanya perbedaan yang merangkak bersama detik yang berdenting. Masihkah kita bisa memilih? Apa pilihanmu?

Gue? Gak usah ditanya, secara pribadi, hidup gue adalah perbedaan. Gue memilih untuk menghadapi perbedaan itu semenjak gue masih terlalu muda untuk menjalaninya. Hanya karena gue memilih untuk menghadapinya dan menjadikan perbedaan sebagai kawan gue walaupun gak munafik sih, perbedaan masih sering jadi masalah juga buat gue. Gue selalu menganggap setiap orang berbeda. At least, gue punya sebuah pandangan bahwa gue adalah gue dan orang lain bukan gue, ketika gue memperlakukan diri gue dengan baik dan gue bisa menerima kebaikan itu, maka gue akan coba melakukan hal kebaikan itu juga untuk orang lain, ketika gue memperlakukan diri gue dengan buruk dan menganggap bahwa diri gue bisa menerimanya, gue akan berpikir bahwa kalau orang lain belum tentu bisa menerima. Bukan bermaksud gue-bisa-elo-enggak tetapi ada faktor dimana ketika lo menghadapi suatu keadaan gak semua orang cocok sama keadaan itu. Sama seperti pemikiran gue, kalau soal masalah penderitaan, kalo gue bisa menahan, gue berpikir supaya at least orang lain tau kalau itu menderita dan tidak perlu mengalaminya untuk tahu kalau penderitaan itu gak enak. Berbeda dengan kalian? So? It’s my opinion and I appreciate your own too, it’s a different again, isn’t it?

Intinya sih, gue masih belom tau akan jadi apa si perbedaan ini, apakah dia bisa dikategorikan selalu baik atau selalu jahat. Cuma, menurut gue, asal lo bisa menjadikan perbedaan itu sebagai sesuatu yang justru menopang kegiatan dan kehidupan lo, that’s what success are. IMHO

*lagi gabut malah nulis asal-asalan*